HAPPINESS

 

SEEKING HAPPINESS IN THE LOT.

 

THEN:

Then, I used to ask myself one question repeatedly; "Why can't I be happy?". I used to cry myself to sleep at night, hoping to get a shoulder to lean on. But it was always myself shielding my own tears, my own sorrows, my own grief--just me. With time I came to terms with the fact that, I can never be happy. "Maybe happiness wasn't meant for me" were the words I used in consoling myself.

I entered into several romantic relationships with the hope of finding happiness. The other person making me happy. But what happens in the end?  I become worse--more broken, more hurt and worst of all; unhappy.

                    I searched for happiness in people. I looked elsewhere for excitement, for joy, for peace.

 

 

NOW:

 "When people say they love you, you expect they mean it. When you give your trust to those you care about, you expect they will not break it. When you work hard on a dream, you expect everything will fall into place. It is human nature to have expectations. However, you must pour a liberal amount of reason into your life, so that when people do what they do and when things do not go as planned, you learn to accept things as they are and muster courage to release what is beyond your control. Do not let failed expectations make you think you deserve less in life. Things will not always go your way, but don't use that as a reason to diminish what you can do with your life". - Dodinsky

Dodinsky's words gave me a new look on life--a new perception about life. It made me realize that there was a lot more to life than expectations.

Disappointments are bound to happen, to occur. Hence the best way to live is to take into consideration the fact that things won't always go as planned. Plans will fail. People will switch up.

Do not look for happiness in the lot; amongst people. But rather, look for happiness within you. True happiness lies within yourself.

Go out. Eat your favourite meal. Dance to your favourite tune. Then you will realise that you don't need anyone to make you happy. Because you can make yourself happy.

The happiness you find from within you will heal you and not break you...!

- TNASAW.